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Monday, June 30, 2008

spain won thanks to fernando torres. well done torres. now to help liverpool win the epl.

michael ballack, finish 2nd 4 times in 2008. he really got the curse of the number 13 cos he wear 13 for germany and chelsea. i'm also afraid the curse of the number 13 will hit me. u see, my class is BM0813 and i'm number 13 in the class list. i ended up being the class rep and rep for econs and oral com. if i had been in another class, maybe things would have been different.

Sunday, June 29, 2008

michael ballack is a doubt 4 the clash against spain. that's a big blow cos he's the germany captain. it's like going to war without your general. i think michael ballack must change his name to michelle ballluck to change his luck. he already lost 2 finals this year.

i got frust everytime some1 ask me thing related 2 POM, accounts, stats and the internet & web technologies. serious, i'm not the rep for those module. i don't have the answer 2 the questions that i was ask. for stats, eddie yeo nvr selected any1 2 b the rep. please b clear bout that. for POM, accounts and the web u gt 2 ask the respective rep. really, i don't wan 2 get blame 4 something which is not my responsibility.

for the POM ica 1 issue. i got a shock when winnie called me. she said she wan to change the date 4 POM ica 1. she ask me can i inform the whole class. i said i can. so i inform every1. i didn't ask winnie why she approach me 4 that but i know atricia should inform the whole class. but since winnie wanted me to inform, so i respect her decision.

Saturday, June 28, 2008

i can't wait 4 germany 2 take on spain. i'm rooting 4 spain cos got 4 liverpool players in their squad. torres, alonso, arbeloa and reina are the 4. jojo is a big german supporter. germany will lose cos of michael ballack. in 2002, he completed a treble horror, he lost in the world cup final. treble horror means losing champions league, 2nd in league and cup.for 2008, he completed a treble horror so he will lost in the euro 2008 final. i don't think jojo know this. hope, penalty shootout wouldn't b use 2 decide the winner.

Friday, June 27, 2008

econs ica got 25 & a half out of 40. was expecting 2 flung but was proven wrong. accounts ica got 23 out of 25 which was great. my mum was the 1 who advised me 2 take accounts 4 sec 3 and nvr regret heeding it. so the result is a tribute 2 mum. accounts mean a lot 2 me. nearly give up on my studies when in upper sec. had a horrible time while in upper sec. my mum cried at home alot when she know my bro add the tattoos during that time. if my mum really commit suicide, it will have been a big blow. lucky my dad could survive the punch my bro give. if not i could have been an orphan.

Thursday, June 26, 2008

without love, the days in a week will be moanday, tearsday, wasteday, thirstday, frightday, shatterday and sadday.

Wednesday, June 25, 2008

yesterday i took bus 45 to skool instead of train. usually tuesday took train cos scared late if take bus. but yesterday took risk take bus. out of house at 6.45am, reach class at 7 53am. anyway go nyp take train at tanah merah but go home stop at bedok. was half dead at stats lecture, i only save half of what eddie yeo taught.i go home i took train from yck 2 jurong 2 bedok. long trip which was meant 2 find inspiration. i did find some. reach home, my mum say my bro buy motor already. she say no choice give him money 2 buy his motor. my bro wanted 2 borrow from loanshark 2buy his motor, my dad guarantor. anyway, mindef send him to australia for exercise wallaby from 20 sep to 31 dec 2008. so the motor will stay in s'pore but owner in australia. so he won't b here on my birthday 4 oct.

2day, took bus 45 to skool, reach nyp at 8 20. hungry so go makan prata at north canteen, saw soh bee luan and her cute daughter also eating prata. then went for econs lecture, puar leong sng lost voice so his voice was hoarse. jowena tutorial was fun. laugh a lot. later plan 2 watch german vrs turkey, i'm rooting 4 turkey. i plan to watch spain vrs russia also. if spain win euro 2008, 10000 spain supporters will shave their head. that's a good way 2 show your support. i have been bald be4 so i know the experience of being bald. but i think russia will upset spain in semi.

Tuesday, June 24, 2008

it's been a miracle 2 b in a poly now. i nvr imagine could do well in my n level. had a bad year in 2006 cos things wasn't going well in my life. had 2 overcame a lot of things. had 2 overcome mum suicide threat was a big challenge at that time. i nvr tell people what happen 2 me in those year until i reveal it in my blog. what i went through was painful and i'm still feeling the pain of it. it nvr went away. i just try and do my best 4 n level even though i feel like giving up but don't know y can do well 2 take o level. o level year was much easier cos my bro was in ns so he change but not enough. o level score 17 points better than bro who got 22 in 2004.

A man calls the Animal Control in his town, because there is a crazed gorilla on his roof, and he can't figure out how to get it down safely. Soon, a van pulls up, and an old man gets out, carrying a small dog, a baseball bat, and a gun. He hands the man the gun.

"Okay, here's what we do. I'm going to go up onto your roof, and threaten the gorilla with this baseball bat until he falls down. When he falls down, this little dog will bite him in the balls until he's incapacitated."

"Great," says the man. "But what's the gun for?"

"In case I fall down instead of the gorilla -- shoot the dog."

Friday, June 20, 2008

my parents had their birthday on 16 & 17 june.
it's been a tough few years 4 them. they went through tough times. if i tell u all what happen these past few years, i can tell the story got 2 b sad.
my family crisis started back in 2004. my mum run away from house a few times in 04. she got hit by bro with bamboo stick. hurt her thigh. what's worse was i saw it with my own eyes. my mum cried after that, i also cry, my bro went off cos dad wasn't home at that time. dad went home, he was shocked 2 know my mum had got off to my aunt house. i don't know what 2 do next cos i was young that time. worst was yet 2 come, in 05 or 06 my dad got a broken nose. my bro go punched him in the early morning. my mum, dad and bro got 2 a huge quarrel, not sure what really happen, i got awaken by the quarrel but nvr went out 2 check cos scared worsen things. my parents lied that the broken nose was due 2 a work accident but i knew it was a punch by bro cos they mentioned few times after that incident, my bro had hit them. my dad nvr talk with bro 4 few days following the punch. now bro and dad on good terms but now dad wary of bro. my bro always promise not 2 add tattoos 2 my parents but it nvr happen. that was the reason my mum had threatened suicide a few years back. my mum say no other way out unless suicide cos she cannot bear 2 see her own son like that. my dad hear it, he go console my mum. they try every method 2 get rid of bro tattoos but it fails. they once ask him 2 leave the house when they got enough of him. that must have been the last straw cos they put up with him 4 long time but my bro stil the same. a few years back, my mum posted bail 4 my bro cos he got caught in a raid. he got let off with a police warning. the bail was $2000. that's what my dad earn monthly. he nvr went home 4 few days, then got call he need 2 get bailed. went 2 bedok police station which is a stone away from my house and posted bail 4 him. my parents also put up with criticism against them. hope be4 they pass away, they could see my bro without tattoos. hopefully it will come true.

Friday, June 13, 2008

it's going 2 b portugal vrs germany at quarter final if germany qualify 4 knock-out round. nvr expect croatia 2 upset germany. croatia will took on czech or turkey in quarter final. this's unexpected since many say germany will top group b. so 2 all soccer fans, brace yourself 4 more upset as i see it coming. just wait and see.

Thursday, June 12, 2008

it's my parents birthday next week. mum on 16 june, dad on 17 june. not going 2 give them present cos it will not make them happy. what's the best birthday present that make them happy? it'll will be when my bro had his tattoos remove. that beat giving my parents a few million dollars. my parents main objective 4 the past few years has been to remove my bro tattoos. they willing 2 pay any cost 4 removing his tattoo. that's how much they willing 2 sacrifice.

again, got another good offer via email. this time from smallt@eircom.net, the title read Attention Microsoft winner. the email claim my email address was 1 of lucky winners of microsoft year winning promotions ( online program ) held on 20.05.08. this time, able 2 claim up to 450000 pounds sterling in cash. 2 bad, it's a scam. when i read it, ws thinking what 2 do with the money, but then realise the other party wan 2 con me.

can do lots of stuff with 450000 pounds. 1st thing i do give my bro some of the money 2 remove his tattoo. keep 5% in bank, 5% 2 charity, 15% go 2 parents . the rest spend like crazy. send every pretty girl i know a bouquet of flower.

i almost bcome a millionaire last night. got 3 email wth good offer. ibrahim alpha and gilbert pollom from african development bank ( ADB ) send an email each while carlsberg promotion company send the other 1 . all 3 email turn out 2 b scam. ibrahim alpha offer me 30% of 22.6 million US$ if i agree 2 b heir of some1 who die in a plane crash in paris in 2000. gilbert pollom promised a small % of 10.5 million US$ if i agree 2 b heir of some1 who die in a motor accident. i found both offer 2 good 2 b true so i nvr reply. the carlsberg promotion company say i won 650000 pounds. so if any 1 receive such offer, pls just ignore it. 2 good 2 b true. so 2 the scammers who send me those email, nice try.

i got a shock again when i read this email from alexanmg@slu.edu.
the email is reportedly from carlsberg promotion company. they say i won 650000 pounds. i did some check on it and it turn out 2 b a scam. lucky, i wasn't greedy. even if i got the money, my religion forbid me 2 use it.

Wednesday, June 11, 2008

i got an email from ibrah_a503@hotmail.com just now and i got shocked reading it.
below is the email content.

FROM THE DESK OF IBRAHIM ALPHA BILL AND EXCHANGE MANAGER, AFRICAN DEVELOPMENT BANK OUAGADOUGOU, BURKINA FASO.
Dear Sir, I am the manager of bill and exchange foreign remittance at the department of African Development Bank (ADB). In my departmentn we discovered an abandoned sum of $ 22.6 m US dollars (Twenty two Millon six hundred thousand US dollars) . In an account that belongs to one of our foreign customer who died along with his entire family in a concord plane crash in the year 2000 in paris that almost took the whole life of the pasengeres on board. Since we got information about his death, we have been expecting his next of kin to come over and claim his money because we cannot release it unless somebody applies for it as next of kin or relation to the deceased as indicated in our banking guidelines but unfortunately we learnt that all his supposed next of kin or relation died alongside with him at the plane crash leaving nobody behind for the claim. It is therefore upon this discovery that I and other officials in my department now decided to make this businness proposal to you and release the money to you as the next of kin or relation to the deceased for safety and subsequent disbursement since nobody is coming for it and we don;t want this money to go into the Bank treasury as unclaimed Bill. The Banking law and guideline here stipulates that if such money remained unclamed after ten years, the money will be transfered into the Bank treasury account as unclaimed fund. The request of foreigner as next of kin in this business is occasioned by the fact that the customer was a foreigner and a Burkinabe cannot stand as next of kin to a foreigner. We agree that 30 % of this money will be for you as foreign partner, in respect to the provision of a foreign account, 10 % will be set aside for expenses incured during the business and 60 % would be for ;me and my colleagues. Thereafter I and my colleagues will visit your country for disbursement accoding to the percentages indicated. Therefore to enable the immediate trnansfer of this fund to you as arranged, you must apply first to the bank as relations or next of kin of the deceased indicating your bank name, your bank account number, your private telephone and fax number for easy and effective communication and location where in the money will be remitted. Upon receipt of your reply, I will send to you by fax or email the text of the application. I will not fail to bring to your notice that this transaction is hitch free and that you should not entertain any atom of fear as all required arrangements have been made for the transfer. You should contact me immediately as soon as you receive this letter. Trusting to hear from you immediately.
Your;s faithfully,
MR. IBRAHIM ALPHA (Bill and exchange manager)
AFRICAN DEVELOPMENT BANK.

Tuesday, June 10, 2008

tell u all more bout my family. my mum work part time as clerk in a chinese firm 4 long time. my dad work at keppel singmarine 4 29 years already. he's a technician. they don't earn much cos they are lowly educated. my mum workplace is changi south while dad workplace at benoi. my mum usually wake up early at 5.30am while dad wake up at 6am. dad is always at work even on sat and sun. dad loves ship alot, he keep on dreaming of owning a yatch and the name will b kembara. don't worry if the dream become reality, i'ill invite u all on board it.
my bro currently in ns. he ord at end of year.

dad support man u, i'm fan of liverpool, my bro is chelsea fan. fun like that. lucky mum never support arsenal, if not got family soccer war.

dad is the only 1 without hp. he simply don't like 2 use hp. for info, my dad is born in muar, johor but now a s'pore citizen. so he's an example of foreign talent.
my mum born on 16 june 1963, dad born on 17 june 1962, bro born on 12 sep 1988, i born on 4 oct 1990
got cat but don't know its age and birthday. if not can organise birthday party 4 my cat. my cat should b a s'porean.
we don't own any vehicle. but my bro got motor license already. anyway, oil prices going up so i recommend 2 him 2 use cooking oil 4 his future motor.

2day woke up later than usual cos sleep late last night. plan 2 take my SGC at bgss later. miss bgss so much. lots of thing happen while in bgss. the teachers and students there has help alot.

Monday, June 9, 2008

have u ever hear of robber calling police? well, here it goes, 2 service station attendant were working one night when an intoxicated man came in. the man went 2 the counter and told the 2 a robber is in front of them. he told the 2 to hand over some cash. they refuse so he threatened 2 call police. they still refuse and he call police. the police came and arrested him. the moral of the story is not 2 get intoxicated cos u don't know what u're doing when intoxicated.

Sunday, June 8, 2008

2 months eating at nyp already. not much food for muslim there. i can eat at mc, a few stalls at koufu, north canteen and south canteen. south canteen is warm so i avoid there and far from sbm. north canteen my prefered choice for food. some people scared of birds so they avoid north canteen. i'm not fussy, i go whereever got halal food. no need to argue over where 2 eat. anyway, i don't know how 2 use chopstick. normally at home use right hand 2 eat rice. that's what i was taught since young so stick with it.

i never realise that i'm at nyp 4 2 months already. had lots of fun there. i took a while 2 adapt 2 the class cos i don't know anyone from the class before. first day was scary. i was at the walkway when anson tap me. 4 a moment, i was puzzled how this guy know me. then he say he from my class. i just followed my heart and went along with him. we went 2 class and sat down. i on my laptop and connected 2 the internet. such an easy feat.

1st person in class 2 connect 2 internet. after that a few more person came. i only remember the 1st medora lesson, i started joking. just trying my luck 2 make people laugh. turn out they were laughing. after medora lesson, was winnie lesson. i pass away the chance of becoming rep for POM cos i got rep 4 medora. the 1st lecture was by eddie yeo. he was such a bullet train that i got lost.

2nd day was much better. got chosen as class rep during jowena lesson. got shock cos i was thinking of congratulating the class rep the night before.

hew was fun right from the beginning. so 1st day got rep 4 oral com. 2nd day got rep 4 class. 3rd day got rep 4 econs. what a good week.

after 3 weeks, i finally remember everyone name. medora, winnie, eddie, jowena, hew, sbl all easily remembered me. i don't know how they never forgot my name. winnie call me ridwan despite i telling her R I Z W A N. nvm. this is not 1st time, my name got spelled and pronounce wrongly. medora call me mohd which is quite rare 4 me. but most people can say rizwan easily.

fun playing soccer at nyp. i played murderer some time ago after accounts ica. was fun playing. but suppose 2 say die, i change 2 say pass away. it wasn't meant 2 b funny. i did pass away in that game. nicholas find winking tough.
kwang yong nearky strike rich cos of the 5 million prize in toto. i disturb him. i just like 2 disturb people
now i realise, i make alot of jokes already. lucky laughter is not fatal. if not it will the no 1 cause of death worldwide.

winnie mention my name in her lecture and tutorial alot of time. she was the 1 who say i like cassandra and i denied it quickly cos it was false. i think she was poking fun at me.
some people say i look like mouse and i just play along with that. don't know y i look like mouse

met my neighbour just now, tajudin. he's at acjc now. he wasn't just a neighbour but also a schoolmate at east coast pri. after that, he went to victoria school. his o level L145 was 7. smart person. his mum lecturer at sp. his younger bro also at jc. i got 4 neighbours studying at east coast pri. my cousin is also my neighbour. when at bedok green sec, also got schoolmate who's my neighbour. at nyp, also got schoolmate who's my neighbour. just can't run away from neighbour.

Friday, June 6, 2008

ok, finally holiday is here. 2 week break is nice. better still got euro 2008, shiok. not going overseas this time cos got tight schedule. my cousin getting married on 14 june. my neighbour and friend are getting married on 15 june. 16 and 17 june are my parents birthday. 2 nephews brithday in june. both born on the same day but not year. one is in yemen studying. pity him the most. same age as me, sent 2 yemen 4 study. hopefully he's in good health. my friend birthday on 10 june, he's at sp now.

the word happiness has eluded me for 4 years already, i don't know when i'll b happy again. really, life so tough 4 me that i sometimes just feel like there's no point in achieving success. what's the point of achieving success if u are not happy. i really wan 2 prove those critics and doubters wrong.
i did some soul searching inside bus on the way to skool. just feel not worthy of being rep. probably i lack motivation but i really just wan 2 get over this tough period.
sorry 2 classmates if i had been a dissappointment this far. i know i'm not perfect and i got weaknesses.
the turning point of my life was when realizing how close 2 losing everything.

Thursday, June 5, 2008

sorry if i had caused tears 2 flow 2 anyone. it wasn't my intention 2 make people sad, i just wan 2 let people know my background and my life. i admit my life story is sad but life has 2 continue right. frankly, i'm more concerned bout my family than my class. haven't tell jowena bout my background yet, don't know how 2 tell her. she surely shock if know the truth. i like 2 thank everyone who has help me alot.

can't wait 4 euro 2008 cos they say this tournament will b the best. a lot of young talents are expected 2 shine as well as the usual suspect, c ronaldo, buffon, ribery, ballack and many more. should b an exciting tournament cos euro 2004 was really shocking. i watched the final and opening match of euro 2004. greece played well but that was 4 years ago. don't get shocked if i catch the soccer fever. there is no cure 4 this.

Wednesday, June 4, 2008

hey people, my favourite wrestler is CM punk. CM punk go to sleep also quite effective. it's a finishing move in wrestling. he's quite similar to my bro in terms of tattoos. is just that my bro got no pepsi tattoo but he got spider web tattoo. but my bro like batista also cos of tattoo. batista got dragon tattoo on his back. he keep imagining he's batista. CM stand 4 call me. so it's call me punk. cool name. imagine my name is CM wan. nice name. but no tattoos 4 me.

i sometime just feel like crying cos life has been tough so far 4 me. u might see me joking but in reality i wasn't born to create laughter. no 1 will laugh if your mum threaten suicide, but 2 bad, it happen 2 me a few years back, guess the reason for that: tattoos. my bro had completed his hand with tattoos, i went home that day with mum and she cried in a corner, wondering what's her best son going to do next. she threaten suicide, i was crying the whole day. i was scared my mum will do it. but she didn't, and till now i'm afraid of that cos right now my family in a crisis. just now, while waiting 4 soh bee luan, i was sitting down, i was trying 2 think of other things but my mind came back to my family life. sometimes i can't motivate myself, how am i going 2 motivate others. that's y i was reluctant 2 b class rep, my background quite dubious, so i scared people uneasy bout that. that's y i wan 2 quickly end this sem. next sem, i don't wan 2 b rep, let others take over, i'm sure some1 can do the job better than me.

my cat just bite me on my left hand. don't know y my cat bite me maybe cos my cat is angry. tiger must have realised that i been spending not much time with so that's y tiger bite me. it's not the real tiger, but it's my cat name tiger. if a real tiger is in front of me, i won't run cos tiger are scared of my name. just say my name twice when u see a tiger in front of u, the tiger will go away from u. gd luck if it's a bear cos i don't know how 2 shake off bear. if got diploma of animal management, i sure apply 4 that course. i can apply what i learn on tiger ( my cat name )

medora choose me as rep on the 1st lesson of oral com. i don't know why she choose me. puzzled by that. after that, i realise my classmate don't like medora lesson. i just realise i had spend close to $20 on photocopying 4 the oral com module. my classmate wan 2 pay me but i refuse it cos i 'm sincere in doing it, it's ok with me cos the money is put 2 good use. so people don't worry bout me, i can do the job, i do. if i can't, some1 else will do k. u all just play your part as a member of the class. the oppurtunity cost of being rep, i haven't think yet.

my parents got 2 son which is Rizwan and Hairul. anyone who knows my bro know he has tattoos. the tattoos is at his hands, arms, legs, neck, stomach and alot more places. so he is famous cos of his tattoos. i don't like the tattoos cos it bring alot of bad memories. it nearly split my family up. when i say my bro got tattoo, people will get uncomfortable, however bad he is, he's still my bro like it or not. but really i'm not proud of his tattoos cos it's not morally right. that's why i don't say much about my family cos it's not that nice. that's why i'm thick skin cos people always say bad things bout me and my family. they say my parents never teach properly cos my bro got tattoos but's false. he wan 2 do tattoo, it's his choice. we try 2 stop him but he quite hot headed. my parents have tasted the brunt of him before so that's why we left him alone. i don't wan 2 hide my family background but people will know sooner or later.

i had a cat for long time already. his name is tiger. my bro watch 1 drama where the cat name tiger, we find it nice and take it. so don't get shocked if there's a tiger at my house. last year, my female friend went 2 my house and she got bad experience cos she afraid of cats. at that time got cat outside my house cos my neighbour is a cat lover, they like to give cat food. my female friend saw the cat outside, she scream. she went in right, she also scream cos she saw tiger. so anyone who's afraid of cat should avoid my house.

Tuesday, June 3, 2008

sorry if i offend anyone this past few weeks cos i got some personal problems so i frust. u happen 2 cross path with me at the wrong time. 2 bad 4 u. try to solve it but fail. i dedicate the song apologise to all those i offended. don't worry i'm a 4giving person.

i'm from BN so if u know anyone from BN, just say my name, they will know. better still say R I Z W A N, they sure know. anyway i'm class rep as well as rep for econs and BM0701. but i don't like 2 b rep cos cannot slack. if slack the whole class suffer. anyway i rep for 1 sem, after that i want out. i tell jowena but she say she like me 2 continue cos she got rapport with me but i am dead set for 1 sem. so fellow classmate, pls respect my decision.

so sad cos s'pore concede 7 goals against uzbek. anyway, this weekend, euro 2008 will start, my choice is portugal. they has good players at their disposal. their group also quite easy. no way greece will defend their title cos they slack after euro 2004. but don't bet cos shock results will occur. group c is hard to choose cos got france, italy, holland and romania so 2 of them will balik kampung after 3 matches.